I’m always worried I’m not smart enough to have Imposter Syndrome

No one likes to talk about their Imposter Syndrome. So let’s rip off the bandaid and talk about It.

Being creative is who I am. Anything with color, beads and weird objects Im there and ready to create nothing into something.

When I first was introduced to the UI/UX Design community, I thought okay I have no clue what I’m doing. I was so sure life will lead the way and I’ll follow just along. No one told me about the long paralyzing, sweaty night I will be staring at my computer. No one told me i’ll wake up being sick to my stomach at the thought of getting a job during a pandemic to try and pay for my rent.

I’m a 21 year old girl- Jr. Designer -Creator- explorer- attention seeker- craving guidance from mentors and the tech industry. The only problem Is a trendy and very real term everyone uses, Imposter syndrome.

Imposter syndrome: The persistent inability to believe that one’s success is deserved or has been legitimately achieved as a result of one’s own efforts or skills.

Having the constant feeling that I am not good enough weighing over my head like a dark cloud. I begin to feel unmotivated and upset I can’t think about new fresh ideas.

Im a huge believer in “fake it till you make It”. What do you do when faking It isn’t enough anymore. When your passion requires you to be amazing at what you do, but you still have so much to learn. Being a Student to the Industry and to life. Learning the basics at a bootcamp Isn’t enough for me, I need hands on, in house. I need to watch, learn and then do it myself. I want to live the lifestyle, Not being around other designers and design constantly has made me feel behind.

I find that lots of people are harder on themselves than they should be and that is reflected in our culture where we feel like we constantly need to achieve as well as the pressure of going against the norm. But once you try something, you realize that it’s not a bad feeling but a lot of what you felt was not being able to internalize and own your successes.

Something I remind myself everyday for a little bit of confidence:

You are better than you think you are. You are more capable than you think. Let imposter syndrome guide you and become your compass. You’ve got this.

I’d love to hear other people’s thoughts and how you’ve embraced you Imposter Syndrome feelings. Let’s start a conversation and normalize it.